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HERO

Title: HERO
Pairing: YunJae
Rating: PG-13
Length: Oneshot
Genre: High school AU, hurt/comfort, angst
Summary: My beacon of light. My only salvation. My HERO.

A/N: Just an hour break I gave myself from studying. I feel like my brain is going to implode from the vast amount of stuff I’m trying to shove in there for finals…fuck…I’m so terrified…but I need a breather…posting this and going back to studying...obviously this isn't edited.

My HERO

:::

“Fag.”

“Cocksucker.”

“Go jump off the roof, you little bitch.”

“You sure you’re a guy? Look like a fucking girl to me!”

“Ha! Look guys, he really has a dick!”

Jaejoong stared at his reflection in the mirror, eyes locked on the forming bruise right below his left eye. His customary pale skin was now anything but that. It was swollen, red and tender to the touch. He squinted as he continued to stare at his messed up face.

The uncontrollable urge to cry hit him full force then. He stood there, shaking. His grip on the sink tightening almost desperately as he continued to gaze at his damaged reflection.

Why?

God…just why?

No matter what he did or tried to change about his appearance, the other kids always found something about him that they could exploit to their advantage.

There was his hair.

“You spend hours on it, don’t you?”

“Haha! Fucking loser! Look, at it!”

He cringed, recalling the way the others had pulled on it.

In all honesty he thought they were going to rip his scalp off with the way they viciously tugged. It was as if they were trying to pull his hair out all at once.

He had tried not to cry, tried to grit his teeth through the pain but it was to no avail. They just laughed in a circle around him, yanking at it as they continued to terrorize him. He tried…god he fucking tried not to give in…but they weren’t satisfied until he was a sobbing mess on the tiled bathroom floor.

The there were his eyes.

“You’re not fully Korean, you’re just a wanna be!”

“What? Did your mommy spread her legs for some visiting foreigner? Haha! Bet you were a little unexpected mistake, weren’t you?”

Lies.

They were all lies!

He was one hundred percent Korean! He knew it! Even though he’d never had a chance to actually see his father, he could recognize him in every picture.

They shared the same smile, and his mother even told him they even had the same laugh.

His mother wasn’t a whore! His dad was a good man, a paramedic. He saved lives! Helped people!

Then there was his size. He was too small.

His lips were too girly.

He got good grades not because he was smart but because he let the teachers fuck him.

They were demeaning in every sense of the word. The embarrassment and shame he was forced to face when they pulled his pants down and laughed at him…pointing at laughing…finding fault in everything that he was.

It wasn’t like he could force his hair to grow down there…

It wasn’t like he didn’t try to gain weight and muscle…

Every day.

Every single fucking day.

He gritted his teeth hard, enough so that the sound pierced through the silence of the empty bathroom.

Why?

He just wanted to know why?

What had he done to make those guys hate him so much?

Everyone avoided him because of them! Not even one person talked to him!

The whole school treated him like a ghost…an invisible presence…unless it was time for someone to poke fun at him. Then he was like a god damned beacon. They all flocked to see what would happen. Like hyenas to a cornered and injured animal.

He swallowed thickly, wincing a little as the small movement caused his bruise to flare with pain. He parted his lips, breathing in slowly in hopes he could just simply will away the pain. He just needed to breathe…keep breathing…

Just once, he wished that they’d leave him alone.

He just wanted to graduate and get out now. All thoughts of making friends and good memories long since expired upon the realization that no one cared or even wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt.

They all believed the rumors.

Gay.

Fag.

He didn’t even know if he really was one. After all, it’s not like he’d ever done anything about it.

The slight buzz in his pant pocket pulled him out of his twisting thoughts. With a weary sigh Jaejoong reached into his pocket and pulled out his cell phone, an older model, which disturbingly served as another jab at his already poor reputation. He flipped the cumbersome thing open and stared at the screen, visualizing the evidence of a text message.

Almost immediately his somber outlook changed to something a little brighter.

New text message

Sent from: HERO

Instantly he opened it, breath hitching as he read the short contents.

Hey! You won’t believe who I just saw! You know that kid you always talked about? Well, I just saw someone beat the living shit out of him in your school yard!

Jaejoong frowned, thinking about his tormentor and his gangly group of friends. He’d been in the bathroom almost the whole lunch break…but wasn’t HERO in school too? He decided to send a quick text back.

How do you know? Are you cutting school again?

Pressing the ‘send’ button, Jaejoong stayed stock still, waiting for his phone to buzz again. And thankfully, just a few seconds later, it did.

Um…yeah ^_^;

But it’s for a good cause! I swear!

Anyway, I’ll text you later tonight. I need to go drop off some things and then head to work. Don’t you dare fall asleep before I text you, got that Joongie?

;)

Jaejoong smiled to himself, not even paying the throbbing pain in his face any attention. He quickly sent back a reply before shoving the cell phone back into his pocket. Then turning to stare at his reflection in the mirror he hurriedly began cleaning himself up.

It had been almost a year since HERO had messaged him by accident. He recalled sitting in the same bathroom, doubled over holding his stomach and almost biting through his lips to keep himself from crying like a weakling.

His phone had buzzed, and thinking that it was his mother, he quickly drew it out only to find himself staring at an unknown number. He opened the text and read the funny tidbit his mistaken text partner had sent.

HERO had described his mortification of overturning his lunch tray in the cafeteria only then proceeding to trip over his own two feet and go sailing head first into the nearby trashcan. The whole student body had seen it. Now he was hiding out in his school bathroom, asking for help from the person he’d mistakenly texted.

Feeling sympathetic, Jaejoong had texted back…and ever since then, they’d been in contact every day.

Jaejoong had never seen HERO…or really knew what his real name was…the boy never offered it, even after Jaejoong had given his own. However, as time went by, he didn’t mind the mystery. It gave him something to wonder about whenever he felt like there was no hope left for him here.

He’d think about HERO and his whole mood would change.

HERO was his salvation, his beacon of light in a place where no one cared…where no one offered any source of comfort. HERO was his everything.

Many times he’d imagined how HERO looked like…it was at those times he questioned his own sexuality. He knew HERO was a boy, that he was certain. After all, HERO did describe himself to him. Often times he found himself lying on his bed back at home, imagining what life would be like if he and HERO met up.

HERO was everything he wasn’t.

Brave, smart, and apparently, incredibly good looking if his constant complaints about the love confessions left to him in his desk were anything to gauge by. Yes…HERO was everything he wanted to be…and the person he really wanted to meet. Sadly however, the other wasn’t too keen on meeting, at least, not yet. He had asked why the other didn’t want to, but kept getting vague replies back until one day, HERO finally told him why.

Let’s meet on the last day of school, when we graduate. Okay, Joongie?

There is something I want to tell you in person…

And I don’t have the guts to do it yet…

I need some more time…

Sighing a little to himself, Jaejoong straightened up and patted his uniform down, doing his best to remove the litter of wrinkles and water stains left behind by his attempt at looking somewhat presentable. He cleared his throat before casting one last look in the mirror. Then, determined, he lifted his hand and bunched it into a fist.

“Kim Jaejoong.” He said to his reflection. “Hwaiting.”

With that he marched out of the bathroom and headed back to class, knowing he was cutting it pretty close when the bell rung. However he didn’t break out into a run like all the other students around him did. He walked quietly, keeping his head held high as he crossed through the classroom doorway.

His eyes instantly fell on his accursed tormentor, a smirk of satisfaction tugging at his lips as he saw bunched up tissues sticking out of the guy’s nose. Serves you right, asshole…

Without drawing much attention to himself, he humbly headed to his desk, nodding his head to Yunho, a classmate, who was blankly staring at him from his own seat. It was a little unnerving but Jaejoong pretended he didn’t notice as he took his place and turned his attention to the front, folding his hands atop his desk and staring straight ahead.

From two desks behind, Yunho sighed, rotating his wrist under the cover of his perched notebook. He turned his head to the side, eyes glaring razor-like daggers at the cursing student wiggling his bloodied tissues in his nose. The boy turned in his seat, catching Yunho's eye. Immediately his head turned straight away, eyes directed to the floor and the cursing coming to a dead stop.

From his vantage point, Yunho watched as the other sat rigidly still in his chair, shoulders hunched. A smirk of satisfaction graced his lips before Yunho turned his head to the front, watching as their teacher entered the room, a stack of papers in her arms.

“Alright, everyone! Please open your books to page 327…”

Yunho's eyes slowly fell away from the teacher, drifting slowly to a head of straight ebony hair. One hundred days left…Joongie…

Comments

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kas2umi
Dec. 14th, 2013 08:54 pm (UTC)
I freaking love this <3
After crying over an letter for Junsu and feels from today you made me sad at first but then you brightened my day.
You, my darling, need to turn this into a chaptered fic once you've got time.
Love it.
Damn.
kyaaaaa
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:30 pm (UTC)
OTL
I have SO many WIPs that I don't think I can take another chaptered fic on board.
phinea2009
Dec. 14th, 2013 09:11 pm (UTC)
I like this story. I would love to read about their meeting.
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:30 pm (UTC)
Yes, it would indeed be interesting.
Ah, imagination
rise_as5_nine
Dec. 14th, 2013 09:22 pm (UTC)
omg this hurts but it's sooo cute. i'd love to read about when they finlly meet. areyou gonna write a sequel?
thanks for writing this
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:31 pm (UTC)
I'm not planning on it. Maybe someday I will, but as of now it's staying finished.
songbird52317
Dec. 14th, 2013 09:57 pm (UTC)
Aww... what a nice ending! Just read this post about Shinee: http://omonatheydidnt.livejournal.com/12317545.html and they seemed to have the same themes. I always hate for anyone to be bullied, especially LBGT teens, but it is all too common. Good luck on your finals!
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:31 pm (UTC)
Aw thanks! They went well. Passed everything thank god.
Now I'll get back into writing hehe
samo99ro
Dec. 14th, 2013 10:02 pm (UTC)
Yes, this story should be a chaptered one. This should be a prequel or epilogue. As beautiful as it is, this should be just the beginning.

I liked it very much and thank you for sharing.
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:32 pm (UTC)
^_^;
Dunno if I can start another chaptered fic...I have so many ongoing ones
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hujanbiru
Dec. 14th, 2013 11:19 pm (UTC)
I like this..just this part bother me

"He got good grades not because
he was smart but because he let
the teachers fuck him."

T_T
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:32 pm (UTC)
Yeah...the whole thing hurts
</3
aika_min
Dec. 14th, 2013 11:39 pm (UTC)
ahhh i always love your series kkkk. counting the days with yun.
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:33 pm (UTC)
:D
Yeah, I'm leaving it to the reader's imagination on what happens next
shiraemizuka
Dec. 15th, 2013 12:01 am (UTC)
should there is a sequel for this. I wanna read how they finally meets. :3
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:33 pm (UTC)
As of right now, I'm leaving the story as is. Maybe one day I'll write a sequel.
dbsk
Dec. 15th, 2013 12:42 am (UTC)
That was so depressing for a second I was mad at Yunho
But with the ending he won me over it is the sweetest ending ever♡
*wipes tears*
Wow you're amazing *bows to you*
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:33 pm (UTC)
Aw thanks!
*blushes*
mcarol85
Dec. 15th, 2013 12:44 am (UTC)
Awwww

Awesome little one shot

Guess we have to let our imaginations give us the rest of the story

I'm thinking.... Jae grows up like the ugly duckling into the beautiful swan and everyone loves him... All because the love of one hero...
/sigh/

Yunjae yongwonhi
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:34 pm (UTC)
Yes, let your imagination run wild ;)
dulanis
Dec. 15th, 2013 02:13 am (UTC)
Awwwwww why does it have to be a one shot? Waeeeeeeeeeee?
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:34 pm (UTC)
Because I have sooooo many WIPs
OTL
jiyool
Dec. 15th, 2013 03:17 am (UTC)
I think you should make this a two-shot!
Omo....I wonder what will Yunho say...or actually....how will Jaejoong react...
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:35 pm (UTC)
DX
I have too many unfinished works right now so I'm leaving this as a oneshot
serendipitycm
Dec. 15th, 2013 03:20 am (UTC)
awww... HERO is Yunho...? OTL, well it's quite obvious since it's a YunJae fic but still... OTL, will this have a sequel Author-nim? please? *-* I know you're busy with school and stuff and I'm sorry for asking too much but I just love this one shot... kkkk,
fighting at school!! ^^
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the encouragement!
I'm done with finals now so I'll be going back to writing. And as for this story...it's going to remain a oneshot. Maybe one day I'll write a sequel but that isn't going to happen for some time.
yjiji
Dec. 15th, 2013 03:59 am (UTC)
huhu.. it's really sad in the beginning ;; but i'm happy that yunho is the hero ^^
just wait for a while joongie~ hihi
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:36 pm (UTC)
Mhm...this story is sooo depressing :(
shin_ah_mi
Dec. 15th, 2013 05:18 am (UTC)
why does he have to wait and let jj be beaten...
good luck with exams^^
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:37 pm (UTC)
Leaving that to the reader's imagination ;)
Thanks!
rjaejoo
Dec. 15th, 2013 06:17 am (UTC)
Crap just a one shot. Noooo!!! Seriously though this is good and sucks you right in!
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:37 pm (UTC)
Aw thank you!
*blushes*
Glad to hear you enjoyed it!
miracle13_flwr
Dec. 15th, 2013 06:23 am (UTC)
Oh why is this a oneshot? I wish I could read how they meet eventually. Please write about their meeting and make Jae happy :)
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:37 pm (UTC)
Too many ongoing projects right now so this is staying a oneshot
tardiskeeper
Dec. 15th, 2013 07:39 am (UTC)
I am just as excited for graduation day as Jae must be. Yunho's desire for anonymity and his acts of punishing those tormentors really do fulfill that "hero" quality.

Good luck on your exams! Hwaiting!

Thank you!
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:38 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I'm done with finals now. Back to writing~
jaan30
Dec. 15th, 2013 08:03 am (UTC)
Poor Jae :( those kids are so mean! Yunho... why does he protect from afar, why wait until the end of school? You're a tease with this one shot LOL! I hope you do well with your studies.^^ Good luck!!!
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I passed everything, thank god.
Ugh...this week was brutal *flails*
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noeldenever
Dec. 15th, 2013 09:03 am (UTC)
Wae????? Only a oneshot?????????? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *cries
Will be glad if you continue this...but if you don't want to, I'm not going to complain since the fic is yours and not mine ;)
I love this one...though a bit shocked at the beginning, I'm too used to your fluff/crack lately. My bad, I didn't see the genre you put up there.
And...you might hit me for this, but...I love the short stories you write to cool down your brain during your crazy studying sessions :p
*runs away and hides
Thank you for writing and sharing, good luck with your exam <3
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:39 pm (UTC)
Yeah, my brain will do everything but memorize the things it needs OTL
But finals are over now, so my brain could have free reign of my imagination
yukarin17
Dec. 15th, 2013 11:21 pm (UTC)
so so good, i really loved it^^
will you write a sequel ? pleeeeeease
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:40 pm (UTC)
It's staying a oneshot for now
yama_akane
Dec. 16th, 2013 08:00 am (UTC)
Aaanngg~ This is awesome!

Didn't expect the HERO would be Yunho, in the same class too! Though already had a hunch on it..ahahaha~

Would love the day they meet up. :)

Thank you for this awesome oneshot. :)
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:40 pm (UTC)
Glad you liked it
\^o^/
low_03
Dec. 16th, 2013 08:30 am (UTC)
I didn't see that end coming ^^
I know it's a oneshot but would you consider giving it a sequel ? (although this ending is quite original *-*)
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:41 pm (UTC)
I'm not planning on writing a sequel...too many WIPs
OTL
kiboushinjitsu
Dec. 17th, 2013 06:45 am (UTC)
I hate bullies. Never understood how people can take pleasure in degrading a person they don't fully know. But I wonder why Yunho can't reveal himself earlier. It seems like he have some power to make the bullies cower.
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:41 pm (UTC)
It takes a lot of courage to stand up.
Who knows...Yunho has his reasons
countingcr0ws
Dec. 18th, 2013 03:57 pm (UTC)
I AM EXCITED, AND I HATE BULLIES. like i had a camp/ conference a few days back, and my god, i was a fucking loser. they kinda ganged up on this guy for the fun of it, like making him jump like a kangaroo and all of us were supposed to guess everything but kangaroo, and yeah. i was so mad, i whatsapped the guy after to scold him. i just didn't dare to stand up. :(
but /small voice, shifty eyes. i hate bullies...
smartcatt
Dec. 21st, 2013 07:42 pm (UTC)
Standing up for someone else when other's are all for bullying that person is extremely hard. Because all that bullying could be turned on you and that isn't something everyone can deal with
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